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I am a depressed tortured soul that wants to die! I am one with the dark carnival and am
seeking shangri-la! i have nothing here for me! my homie is gone and so long to see him! fuck all of you..you never
cared till now..fucking hipacytes..you'll probly do the same when the wraith comes for me..i am very depressed, but none of
you know my intentions, only the wraith does. i have many growing depressed angers that i am keeping bottled up in my
head waiting for the right moment release! i wonder if anyone knows my intentions, or if the front i put up blindes them from
knowing. i miss my homie and i will see him soon. i am very tired and weak the only thing keeping me here is the
dark carnival. the carnival inside me tells me it is not my time but it is losing power and the time is growing near. i am
truely alone in my twiztid mind and noone understands and never will...they dont feel the things i feel...they dont know what
it is like...sometimes i wonder if my homie can hear me..i long to speak with him..and i soon will..i dont know why i continue
to try..its so much easier to die then to get by...i am burnin' up and i am seeking shangri-la but if it is my destiny to
go to hell it will be a cake walk cuz compared to my life it should be an eaze. You do not know me, you only know the front
that hides my twiztid depression...i am very confused and dont understand why my homie had to leave and leave me here alone...i
am very weak i can rely on the refuge of the dark carnival for so long...i wonder if they'll miss me when im gone or if they'll
celebrate and be glad...all i know is i want out of this body and want to see my homie.. the time is not right yet but i shalll
be in shangri-la soon very soon!!
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I am truely alone...my time is near...i dont not yet know the exact date but it is
close..the wraith inside me tells me it is not yet my time but it is dawning very near...i wonder if anyone will try and stop
me...i am a juggalo and i say it proud with my hatchet on my shoulder. i do not fear death but long it. i wish it would
come sooner...i still mean to go on with my plan...but noone knows cuz of my front...my homie will see me soon and i will
be at peace...this is the only way...if you try and stop me i will take you with me...to shangri-la is the path i shall take...
u must understand this is my destiny..and therefore it is enevitble. i cant feel it..it is close by how will it happen...only
the wraith knows...he talks to me but only in parables...i only understand a few...the ones telling me my time is close...i
do not yet know how it will happen...i wonder if people will judge...or laugh...or cry..i do not want your sympathy or your
mourning, this is my destiny and i accept it and all consequences. you dont understand and never will...this is the only way..fuck
you if u claim to be my friend..i only have 4 friends...one is out ...two incarcerated and my best friend is dead...and i
will see him soon...please do not be upset. this is the path that has been laid out for me by the wraith and i willl
soon be at peace in shangri-la...i wonder if my homie is expecting me...i so long wish to see him again..the dark carnival
inside of me is strong but the wraith is stronger and is overtaking me...i feel weak, tired and depressed..
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